i've got so many to blog about !
but now is not te right time.
so dark. so hollow.

i suck at being a friend.
because at times i just do not know whether to keep or tell.
maybe i'm really just not your piece of cake.

tell me peeps ! is being honest gonna help EVERYTHING?

I am really pissed and tired.

I am disappointed at myself

I do not know if I can hold up till the end

I kinda broke just now

I almost decided to give up, but I know I can't

I still miss you.

BULLSHIATES

i really do not understand.
why is it so hard for you guys to do something nicely for jenny?
after all she had done for us.
i do not understand why is it such a burden for you guys?
is it really that hard to put you guys together?
or is it because of my attitude problems?
i do not know what to say.
immature? arrogant?
i don't think those words suit what i'm trying to tell.
i really don't wanna screw this up.

really thank bryan for helping.
sucha great guy he is.
honestly and seriously.
if you were a girl, i would hug you tight and say i love you from the bottom of my heart.
life-saver

i want more fun. fun, fun , fun

yesterday was kind of a "rojak" day.
frist half of the day was awful. i hope i covered it very well and noone realizes. =)
well the second half of the day was quite AWESOME!
that it made me forget about what has been bothering me lately but that was just temporarily.
i played till i even forgotten to do something important but thank god that mel reminded me.
bt that plan didn't work it still so yea. just screw it.

i want this to be a happy post !
wish me luck. =D

so after lunch at canton-i i went back home to have a quick shower. trust me. once i got home i was jumping up and down, in and out like some mad kangaroo. coz i gotta be QUICK ! still i was late for the movie. the spy next door. comedy. quite nice lah. made me laugh. good enough. =) fyi, the whole cinema laughed actually. and i found out something weird about tzer wern. haaha when people laughed out loud because it's funny, he finds it lame and did not really laugh. when people finds it lame and just a tiny winy bit of people laughed. he laughed out loud. weird guy huh?kai hua is another preety weird one too ! no offence guys. xDDD coz i was late, no pop cons in the cinema. D= but jin gave me pretzels ! yummaaay ! haaha shoot forgot to pay her back.

we bought hamster as pressie. shoooo cuuteee! and went to michelle's house. had fun there. halfway through. we went to the park. and played around like monkeys out of the cage. too bad hui ying gota leave hafway going there. else it's gonna be more fun ! i played swing, see-saw and slide ! it has been long since. xD i love the place. how i wished i was still a kiddo. =( and then we RAN back to the house. no joke people. we RAN. haaha no specific purpose. just for the fun of it. lame much? then we played balloons. and after some while peepies started getting pushed into the poo ! soo fun. buffalos after buffalos got pushed into the pool. i was one of the push-ers. and somehow i was in the pool. and god knows who pushed me. i forgot. lol ! such crazy kids we are for that night.
most importantly, i wanna thank michelle ! and wish her happy birthday here. although i know she may not know i have a blog.

i want more marshmalows ! >.<

anyhooooo, gotta chao now before i get emo. haaha toodles ! have a nice day. lawl

ps in case you didn't notice, my title was "copied" from lady gaga's bad romance. =)

wonders

just read her blog
that feeling is suffocating
i wanna cry. i wanna call her.
but she's too close with her.
which makes me feel insecure telling her truths i know
is moving on this way really not gonna leave a scar on me?
i'm wondering.

2010 !

today is the day i ....
* refresh myself
* set the goal of the year

and also the day i start to ....
* be a little bit more serious than last year =D
* grow up !
* be who i really am :)
* cut away some shyness in me
* pump the hyper blood and start my engine !
* find a hot hunk ! lol kidding . get over with the past. forgive and forget. :)

lessons i learnt ....
* treat ppl like how you wanna be treated.
* cherish everything you've got. (i will try. :D)

best of luck, ching siau chian !
2010, i'll make you love me. =P